Confessions of Complacency

The blessing of children, the blessing of a loving, supportive husband often gets lost in the day to day busyness of life, especially when extra holiday busyness is added to my list. The necessity of doing dishes, laundry, dusting, vacuuming, mopping, sweeping cooking, baking, present purchasing, present wrapping, errand running, volunteering, party attending often hold more weight on our to do list than the long term qualitative things of life. This morning I sat in my van that was idling in my driveway; reading a book, dinking on my phone, listening to music. A latest favorite, not because of the cheesy midi sounding music, but because of the impacting words, song came on and my neighbors must have thought I really lost it as the tears streamed down my face. Listen to it ...

I was pretty convicted that I had chosen to get lost in these menial tasks and have pushed being a mom and wife aside. I had lost the fact that I am first a child of God, I am a wife & a mom. I had forgotten Who I Am. When I looked in the mirror I seen a mom who loses it and yells, a mom who is impatient. I seen the wife who disrespects her husband, who neglects his needs. A person whose words drip with more sarcasm than love and kindness, whose actions reflect the impatient hurriedness of life. I became a mom, wife, friend who would take the easiest path of least resistance instead of pouring the extra effort into life and making the most out of each opportunity to show love to those in my life. 

I don't know about you, but I really needed to be reminded who I am and who I belong to, especially in this season of life. Remembering this makes it all that easier to pour more into life. I don't want to become complacent in my relationships and roles. I want to bring it all to the table and not to leave regretting not having put my heart into everything. I've been blessed to be enjoying life with these wonderful short people lately: 

If you live in Northeastern Wisconsin, we highly recommend Whispering Pines as THE place to go cut your Christmas tree down. Excellent prices, great experience, super helpful and friendly staff & really easy to find! The bathtub picture was a cute one left over from Thanksgiving, you cannot find 2 cute boys with water guns in a bathtub there ... nor can you find a cute boy pretending to eat a fish tail at Whispering Pines!